I often suffer a feeling of dilemma to choose between the theories proving the existence of a superpower. While my heart prefers believing that 'God - the super-being' exists, my brain judges its existence when things don't go my way. I'm sure everyone feels the same way as I feel. We are human and it's natural for us to remember god or look forward for his divine miracle only when we are suffering pain.
Since ages when human first attained consciousness, there is this debate that a super-power exists. A group of people have always been believing that they are controlled by something invisible while the other group disagree to this theory, and hence they are tagged as 'atheists'. Even in the first group, there are many belief systems as to what this invisible controller is. Some define it as God; and depending on what religion they follow, god itself is again perceived differently by different minds. While this definition is always criticized by atheists on grounds of scientific theories which tends to prove the non-existence of any such entity.
When I turn into a believer, I see things happening only on his will. I feel the cause of my happiness is the good thing I've done. And, the cause of their misery is the bad things they might have done. I don't question unless I find it going against my happiness. When things go terribly bad, I start to call him with an anticipation that bad times would fade away with his compassion. Two possibilities, either things will change, or will remain intact. If things change the way I want it to change, I thank him, and if not, I start questioning its existence.
When I find myself doubting its presence, I see my happiness as a mere coincidence. I feel the cause of my happiness was not the good thing I've done, but is a condition that I happened to live coz everything was in my favor. And, the cause of their misery is not the result of bad things they have done but simply because their environment is not in their favor. I question its existence and I start believing that money and power can do anything.
Science has not proved its existence, neither has it been able to prove that it doesn't exist. And, Science is never a complete knowledge, it changes when new theories are built.
In this state of dilemma, I often feel it's logical to toss a coin and let it decide its fate...if it turns head, it exists, if it turns tail, it doesn't. Coz, both are true for me; just depends what I want it to be.
I toss the coin expecting it to be head when I want him to exist, and I expect it to turn tail when I'm atheist. Like everyone I also believe the coin can have only two sides, either he exists or he doesn't......... Tossed up the coin...but the coin has stood on its breadth. Neither head nor tail....
The third side.... there's the answer to our question.... does it exist, or it doesn't?
